Here’s something I think about a lot: Being seen. It is absolutely, one hundred percent some unhealed part of myself that jumps up and down waving, “LOOK AT ME! LOOK AT ME!” I did not say it is a likable trait. I also hasten to clarify that this does not happen in public or group situations. I am not a performer, although I am reduced to performing in anything outside a one-on-one scenario. I attribute it to autism: I simply do not know how to be myself when there is more than another person present (OK, usually also when there is just one person present).
Beautiful piece. Love the way you are constantly seeing yourself in new ways. Thank you for sharing!